A Monster Hit
Awareness is key in understanding the ways of our mind. There are many, and very good arguments as to why awareness of the Self should be avoided, (The very lie altruism is based upon) stating very believably that full awareness will inevitably cause apathy. Personally, I feel that instead of using awareness as a reshaping tool, it is far more enjoyable to use it for observation and the occasional nudge in this or that direction. (Naturally, in order for us to even be, there must exist within our minds certain fix-points or values - something causing us to act)
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When we are faced with a situation that holds several different emotional outcomes, a process starts within us.
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Let’s say that there appears in your head two possible futures in this particular instance, one of these being the planned or hitherto expected future, while the other is for example the unlikely possibility of a much darker one.
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These two parallel worlds, or futures, will run alongside each other, their size determined only by our own severely inaccurate grading systems. The darker one, if it is a minority, will cause a dent in your latent emotional state. The dent will produce damage as long as the possibility is still active - you will live in two worlds. Often the probability of the alternate world decreases with time giving it the structure of an exponentially negative (how negative is contingent upon amplitude on this particular wave) curve. Except repression, which is like putting the emotional price on a tab, there are as I see it, three different ways to repair an emotional damage – or rather, stop the flow of the emotional bleeding in your latent Self. Yes, your latent state is indeed a being within you, the mind, the time conceiving, the psychoactive – and it too needs to be fed (although my utopian vision contains a lot more somatic energy, the mind is still the truly powerful one and if let, will devour the body. It must be fed and kept happy for the divine satanic dance to continue). Oh, the three possible ways of reparation:
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- In order for the bleeding to cease, you can find different ways to falsify the parallel universe (regardless of its importance; it might be the possibility that an e-mail doesn’t reach its recipient, as well as it may be the possibility of death when you find yourself in the middle of the pacific ocean surrounded only by the emptiness of God). You can either use deduction to dig your way to a possible falsification, then test it – or you can stumble upon it. Note that awareness is needed here as well in order to perceive the falsification, thus relieving you of the latent debt.
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- Forget the possibility ever showed up. The mind will eventually throw away this information and label it as unlikely or untrue. The time it takes to forget depends on how horrible of a future it was, the subjectively calculated probability of the universe to occur and how much of the individual’s focus is directed at his preparational self, his apollonian ideal. [Forgetting an instant emotional damage follows a similar procedure]
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- Lastly, the possibility can be verified, when shit actually happens, thus causing pain in the form of an instant emotional damage, repairable only by forgetting (or in a few cases denying).
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As you might have noticed, this applies just as well to a parallel world which is welcomed or even sought by the individual, rather than feared. All you need to do is to imagine the complete opposite of what has been written above. ( verify->falsify horrible->terrific and so on)
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Four stages:
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Fear – Rage – Laughter – Happiness
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Fear and happiness being direct reactions to perceived latent state, while the direct emotional state give rise to the far more strong reactions rage and laughter. Which of these doubled reactions you choose is of course varying and largely dependent on your position on the Apollonian-Dionysian scale.
